Strong Enough

Strong Enough by Matthew West came on the radio today while I was running a quick errand with Caden. I've heard it before and loved it, but had forgotten about it. This song helps me remember it's okay to lean on God and be honest with him about your struggles.

Two verses in it really hit home. 'Hands of mercy won't you cover me, Lord right now I'm asking you to be strong enough for the both of us' and 'I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength'. The second is from Philippians 4:13. If there is one thing my mom taught me that I remember and have never quit using, it's that verse.

You know how God seems to sneak in the perfect songs, phrases and people into your life when you need it the most? So glad he does that. I've noticed it multiple times-I'll be going through something and on the radio they hit that exact topic. Not only did this song come on, but the station (K-LOVE/99.1) also hit on the topic of trusting God in the situations he has put you in and know that you are there for a reason. I constantly have to remind myself of that one as well.

Well, as I return back to work tomorrow I definitely don't feel strong enough to take on this new phase without God's help. It's hard 'giving up' taking care of our son full time. I have a very selfish feeling that that's my job, my baby and I don't want to share. I know-flash back to kindergarten. BUT at the same time that those feelings sweep over me I think about the amazing women God has blessed us with who are helping care for our son. We couldn't be luckier or more grateful. I know he will be showered with love and don't have any doubt in them. Just breaks my heart thinking I'm going to miss out.

At the same time, I am a little eager to get back into the work environment. Being a stay at home mom is not easy, even when I've had the best days full of smiles and cuddles it still can be draining and a bit exhausting. I hate even saying that because my love for Caden is so strong that it sounds contradicting to that-but it's just the truth about caring for a baby/child no matter how strong the love.

Either way, today we stayed in our scrubs and got lots of cuddling in while we could. I have loved my time with Caden, this experience and blessing of being a new mom has been eventful to say the least. I wouldn't trade it for anything. I will continue to look forward to seeing my little man after work, and not taking any of our time for granted.

Prayers for our little boy, to the outstanding ladies who will be helping us and watching him, and (being selfish) to me for this new adjustment. Amen, amen, amen.