It will depend on the day you ask me, shocker. Probably even depend at what point in the day you ask me--all together in this stage, for me, it is easier to focus and dwell on the difficult, the tiring, the repetitive.
Yet amongst it all-when God shines light on the good, fueling us for our purpose and reminding us of the bigger picture-man, does he shine bright and I am SO thankful for that.
Whether in my life, or being able to see it through others, it is so refreshing.
God has worked through Caden and my relationship this week for the better. Not saying it wont still fluctuate, because I know it will, but I would be remiss to only share the gloom and not the glory.
We initiated a schedule, and it has been good for us both. It hasn't been a set in stone deal and it still changes day of hence the choice of magnet strips for each piece, but it has helped us thus far, so I'm a fan.
Structure isn't only good for the little ones, it's sometimes what we all need. To hold ourselves accountable. To not just fall on being lazy, or thinking of our own needs and wants. That is, unless you're on the beach with a mai tai, erase all structure and zone out. But, sadly, that is not our current location.
Along with our new agenda, I started to work on the letter A with Caden this week, in attempts to do a letter a week.
At first, I was rolling my eyes thinking this is for the birds. But, as if to prove against my thoughts that instant results are realistic, it took all week for the heavens to open and sing sweet praises and see real connection and progress.
He first fought me on a few things. He got irritated quick to my corrections, or just frustrated in general from who knows what-not me, still lost on some of those. But that was more the first two days.
The third day was better-so much that at our church small group I didn't even have a prayer request to list but a praise that finally we had a good day-maybe I'd even say a great day-after about a week and a half of just on and off battles that had drained me completely.
Only twelve minutes into a Love and Logic dvd, a little added structure, some afternoon structure and giving into the forfeited naps and FOLKS--WE HAVE PROGRESS!!
I would be doing backflips right now if I could. I was one blink away from shedding tears over our letter 'A' activities today. Joy and pride are here in place of what was exhaustion and defeat and THAT is praise worthy-so here I am. Wanting to share the good, and not just the bad.
You go, Mama! You're awesome! :)
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